Is this it?

You think yourself to be one of those people who just isn't meant to be in relationships. You're too rigid, too introverted, too guarded. But then you meet Someone that makes everything feel different. You are together bit you still feel free. You feel safe and protected. You want to be a better person so you can give that person the best of you. Is this what live feels like?

ATP

So I paid for online coaching through alpha training protocols. They seem pretty legit and intense. I have a macro plan and a lifting plan and I have to record my macro intake and weight everyday and send my logs in every Sunday. Weighing myself Is really scary but it is another reality I need to accept. Ignoring it doesn't change it and knowing it doesn't change me or define me. It is a relationship with gravity and a tool to track my progress. That's it.